It feels so nice to have a complete day off. Especially after a hectic day.
Yesterday was the first time I had three gigs in one day. The first one was in a Church about 20mins away from my place. A ballet company performed a ballet in the Church to celebrate Easter. I was put in the corner of the auditorium and performed some background music before and after the ballet. Therefore I got to see the ballet as well!
After this I headed back home, had half an hour to chill, another half an hour to eat, and then left again. This time I had 30mins to drive to the hills for a gig in a restaurant, with none other than my beloved friend XXX. We met directly at the restaurant. We spent twenty minutes speaking to the other musician who was performing before us, and trying to work out a way to get the harp over the fence as the performance area was surrounded by a fence and there wasn’t a gate anywhere (very smart). We ended up having to lift the big harp horizontally over the fence. I was petrified that someone would drop it and it’d be the end of my harp career!
My friend and I played for about an hour, mostly pop tunes, including Imagine, the Game of Thrones theme, Stairway to Heaven … but also a classical tune (Bach’s Prelude in C). It seems most people liked it, we got a couple of claps after every song. We were a little Under prepared, thanks to my friend who cancelled our rehearsal last night!
After an hour of playing, we decided to stop as my friend still hadn’t eaten. We joined his parents and their friends at a table. Joy of joy, one of their friend introduced me as the “daughter in law” to another friend. LOL. That was a bit awkward but mostly hilarious as I have a huge crush on my friend, and I absolutely adore him, and I think he likes me too (but I’m not so sure still). It didn’t help that I was sitting directly across from my crush so it sort of felt like we were there as a couple rather than as friends. I’ve never been good with romantic things, especially not with my friend as we always hang out as friends.
My friend ordered a main meal and I got some dessert. Once we’d finished eating, we went for a walk outside. It was so quiet. We walked down a street, next to a winery. We weren’t speaking very much … I had my reasons. Still, it was so nice, and the atmosphere between us wasn’t tense at all. As usual. When we got back to the restaurant, it was pretty much time for me to leave for gig #3. So we packed the harp up, and off I left, with my friend, who didn’t want to be left with his parents for the rest of the day.
I was going to give him a lift home but we didn’t have enough time, so he came with me to my gig. He helped me unload the harp, and as I was so tight on time, he parked the car for me, lol. I don’t know what he did for the first half an hour, but he came by the reception area and listened to me play for the remaining 15minutes of my gig. Finally, when I was done, he helped me pack everything back.
And then I drove him home. It was mostly quiet again between us. Not only was I so tired from the day, but all my thoughts were completely out of place and inappropriate. I couldn’t think of a worthwhile thing to say, so I didn’t say anything at all. We gave each other a quick hug before he got out of my car, and I drove away.
I had just gone down the street when a voice told me I should go back. Well, I was very very hesitant. I had left so many things unsaid and didn’t know if I should say them to him or not. In any case, a part of me just yelled Inside, “just go and tell him honestly how you feel, grab the opportunity while it’s there, while you can”. So I drove back. But once Inside his house, all my courage had vanished again. We stood outside my car, and all I could managed to say was that I had written him two letters. So I gave them to him. And then we hugged again. But this time a longer hug. So I was a little happier.
Anyhow, today I did like nothing. Ok, that’s a lie. I spent a good hour ironing 2 week’s Worth of clothing. Then I organised my calendar, went through all my emails to make sure I don’t have a gig coming up that I accidently had missed jotting down. In the afternoon I had to fill the car with petrol, and take my sister to the shops. Later in the afternoon, my parents’ friends came over and my mum forced me to go and play some music for them. And just then I have attempting to draw my crush (copying off a magnificent photo of him, lol) but it hasn’t turned out as well as I would like. Not that I expected any different, I’ve never been talented at art. I might spend the rest of my evening reading a book or writing or meditating … and tomorrow, when all my batteries will have been replenished, I’ll be ready to get straight back into work!!