Today was such a cool day!!!
I didn’t mind so much that I had to get up at 7am – because I was going to uni with XXX!! 😀 He is doing a unit in chamber music and has asked me to be the second (and only) member of his chamber ensemble. Of COURSE I accepted, even if it means waking up early on Mondays and having to step onto the campus again …
He arrived at quarter to eight at my house and off we went, hit the freeway. As it was peak time there was quite a lot of traffic, but we managed to get there on time. Usually chamber music starts at 9am but as today is the first day of the semester, the class wasn’t on. So XXX and I just went to a practice room and began rehearsing.
At 10am he had to leave for the school of music meeting, and he came back near 11am. We rehearsed some more until we felt so hungry that we went off to have lunch.
The music students’ society had done a sausage sizzle so XXX got two sausages (he hadn’t brought any lunch with him!). In fact we made a whole deal of it. He was like, “do you want some of my sausage? Have my sausage” (of course, just saying dirty jokes …). lol. But that’s just who we are, you know!
We walked back to his car as he had to move it because of the parking time restriction. We decided to eat somewhere in the shade, so we sat on grass near the road.
I had actually managed to prepare a salad in the morning in like five minutes and the plan was that it was mine. But, seeing my best friend/crush/love with only two sausages (half of one I’d eaten because he hadn’t liked it), I decided to share my salad with him. Good thing I had brought two forks. I suggested I make us lunch every week from now on (seriously). However, as we had only one salad to share, both of us felt pretty hungry still once we’d finished. So we went to the French café we had gone to last week, and share a crêpe, which by the way was sooo good.
As we walked out of the French café and back towards uni, XXX asked me what I thought of the waitress – who, unsurprisingly, was French. I actually hadn’t paid that much attention to her but he had found her hot. So I said I thought the waiter was pretty handsome (even though I hadn’t paid SO much attention to him either). lol I just love our conversations sometimes!
Back at uni we practiced again just because we could, and at 2pm he went off to choir. But of course choir wasn’t on! So we went to the library to check our emails quickly, and then decided to go home. It was about 2.30pm.
We walked to his car and then – adventure! XXX couldn’t find his car keys anywhere. Not in his bag, not in his pockets, not in his guitar case. They were GONE. So I stayed near his car with his guitar and bag while he went back to uni to look for his keys in the library and the practice room. 10mins he came back, still without them!!! We were getting worried. The only two places the keys could be were on the grass where we’d eaten our salad, or the French place. So off he went to have a look. JOY OF JOY he FOUND the keys on the GRASS!!!!! What a relief!!!! (But seriously, only THAT would happen with XXX!!)
We got in the car and XXX suggested we go through his favourite suburb – just like we’d done last week. It made us laugh because last week we’d end up at the lake, kissing … but I said, “yeah let’s go”, so we went. Actually we did go to the lake again this time. And I would have loved for what happened last week, to happen again today. It would have been better this week! We just went for a BIG walk – as I don’t have a watch and I hadn’t taken my phone with me, I had no idea of time, but soon it was 20 past 4 and we had to get going home!
But let me tell you how nice our walk at the park was. We talked about children. He asked me at what age I think I would like to have a child. I am serious! And I said I first of all would like to make sure I can live on my own before I have kids, so I would be at least 22 or 23 before I have a kid, but it would probably be a little later than that. And it also depends on work. We talked about raising children and how he’d make them learn a musical instrument and how he’d probably end up being a dad who tries to be cool but really isn’t. It’s just funny you know talking to your favourite person about having children and raising children. It didn’t make me feel awkward at all. I just wondered if every girl-boy friendship out there discussed about these things.
In fact whenever we go through that particular suburb XXX tries to convince me how good of a suburb it is. He says that EVERYTHING is nearby – may it be the city, another suburb we both like, a good public school, a good concert venue, the university, the beach … all are 10minutes away. Plus, there is a lake! (And we both happen to love lakes). I’m seriously wondering who else he’s told all his future goals and plans and hopes to – I feel I may be th only one!!! What an honour!!!
Eventually we got back in the car and made our way home. I grew incredibly pensive on the way home. I was thinking here I was learning so much about him and having a glimpse into his future, or at least, I have an understanding of what he wants his future to be. And I was thinking how maybe he will get a girlfriend who isn’t me, and together they will experience all these things that XXX tells me about, and shows me!!! I sort of felt SAD!!!! And I just wanted to touch him lovingly, to put my hand on his hand, when he was holding the gearstick. Or just to cup his face into my hands and say, “I think you’re a bit lame sometimes but man you are so interesting and great and I love you no matter what”. But I can’t DO IT!!!!
He put on this CD of a guitarist accompanying a singer. The singer had this mellow voice, and we listened to it in silence for the most part. Then he briefly turned his face to look at me and went, “do you want to go see them live?”
omg :’) I could have cried.
Also I thought about sex and friendship and marriage. How in some friendships, sex ruins it or whatever, makes the whole thing a tad awkward. But it’s really not like that with us. Our friendship is just the awesomest thing in the world!! And I thought how sometimes people are scared to date a friend because it would ruin the friendship but again I thought about it and I thought how dating XXX would strengthen our friendship even more!!! (if that is possible).
But then I felt sad because I thought, well maybe we’ll never really be in a relationship. Don’t get me wrong, I’m absolutely happy with the current state of things – they have never been so good. But – will we ever be more? When you get to know someone so well, to share so many things together, even just as friends? Will there ever be more?
Today was such a cool day!!!