My last post was slightly depressing and I’m happy to say I was getting anxious for no apparent reason. I may have lost two harp students but my boss didn’t actually seem annoyed or to have lost any faith in my ability to teach (huuuuuuuuuuuge relief). He’s suggested we make a call for more students in the next couple of months. Yay, I will keep my job, I am not fired, I am not a failure like I thought I was!!!! I felt so embarrassed and anxious yesterday that when I heard his voice from the staff room, I quickly retreated into the bathroom to avoid him (that is how anxious I was feeling). Then I looked in the mirror and thought, “Have courage, and be kind” (the words I live by) – I mean, what was the point of hiding anyway? Not only would I eventually have to face him, but he would eventually find out two of my students have quit. So out I went again and then I told him what had been going on and he just reacted really nicely and kindly. See Eliza, no need to worry so much sometimes girl!!!

I was in a pretty good mood after work as you can imagine. Of course all I can think about is more work means more money which means moving out might be financially possible, and I would only move out with XXX. So basically the only reason I get excited about more work is because of XXX LOL – that just shows how crazy in love I am with him.

After work I gave a private harp lesson to a girl who is about – oh she would be 13 or 14 years old. I have been teaching her since March this year. She is too funny, she often makes me laugh so hard – unsurprisingly that happened yesterday as well … and after that I went straight to my choir rehearsal and came home at 10pm – phew, such a long day!

Today was a productive day, just the way I like them. I got up, ate a little snack, worked out, then spent some time organising and ticking things off my to-do list. I had lunch, played harp for a bit, went to drop some things off at this family’s house, then I caught up with a friend who is here for the week-end. And then I went volunteering for two hours!

Can I just say I AM SO BLOODY EXCITED: XXX is coming back THIS SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And we might even start dating!!!! Hopefully I am not getting my hopes up but literally that is all I think about so I just can’t wait until we talk about it and maybe he’ll be ok with starting a relationship with me!!! I think I actually WANT it now (not like 2 years ago when XXX and I met) Maybe he feels the same way!!!!! He’s told me he thinks about it tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. Yay maybe he is in love with me tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. omg I love this guy. I’m just so excited to see him again; absence makes the heart definitely fonder!!!!!!


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